There is always an excuse not to.

For example I am going away in 2 weeks on holiday. plus it will help break my routine.

but I was thinking if I stopped tomorrow I should be alright by the time I go away. I feel ****ty anyway so to feel even more ****ty for a few weeks will be fine.

I am not going to waste anymore attempts with patches/cutting down/vaping etc.

I just got to stop. It might not be as bad as I think it will be.