20's being a rockstar.
Would you be dead now? and what killed you?
Fair chance I would have blown my head off, if the unwelcome attentions side of fame drove me over the edge, and I had access to a gun. Given the choice, I would probably have wanted the music to be famous, not me.
While I have enjoyed the drugs and booze, I have generally been fairly sensible about dosage, if not always on frequency. Never was one to spunk money on needless equipment, with a few exceptions.